Hahahahaa,, juz finished my 3rd paper. 1/2 way thru liao 3 more paper to go. Things' been a breeze i call it. Think im past the gaga over paper feeling. i juz started cramming 2 days ago n today i "bome" everything out. Wad i know i can give, wad i don't i juz dunoe la. Yuling has been relentlessly coming in/calling/msg-ing to check on me past few days. NAH! i dun nid this!!! And so happen when she come in im either spider solitare-ing/ watching "名厨上菜" downloaded from mobTV. Thank god Mark tong come n study with me. Erm not mug together but juz physically here n conduct restraining order when i exceed my tv hours. Such a good man even offer to buy me food b4 exam can. But im already delirious n lack of appetite b4 paper. Muahahahaaa.. But we sabo each other la. i sent him this really gay yen link: http://shingakunet.com/special/10054301/0285/index.html n he spents all day trying to figure out the configuration. The next day he found another website similar to this & repeat the same sequencing. Meanwhile i juz cant get my eyes off the screen & my fingers clicking away furiously in desperate attempts to solve uncountable games of spider. Machiam lyk if i dun complete the game i will not do well for paper lykdat. In the back of my mind im thinking: " roomie where r u shopping or attending wedding dinner @ today? So bloody slack. PIG."
Basically im not studying much. Wad's wrong with me? Too much tv got me thinking bt future career options. Something bigger den exams. Chef maybe? Haha i geniuely have an interest in this field can~ I knew very long ago i was not cut out to be an engineer. But uni taught me alot of stuff outside text. All the human relations, cat fights and politics. Its everywhere man, 从头发到呼吸. And lyk everyone else including myself who believes there's no 1 here really worth knowing, im surprised with the bonds i had made with some of the ppl i met here. I wouldnt change a thing becos i have had the chance to cross their path. YEAH~ Lyk wad siang ping said ytd morning when he drop by to visit: " Its sad when u work u cant choose ur collegues, unlike your frens." OMG almost fergot to mention, he purposely grab my attention to tell me in his fake serious tone : "wow peiqin i must say ur complexion really improved alot, at least from this angle". SMS, dat time the 1st n last thing siew sze said to me is also this. After dat they juz end off asking for my doc's no. Muahaha... let sz go do his face 1st la! Den we can compare which doc beta.
Ya and back to the topic rite, i must say i have "sinned" becos in one point i have trusted some1 else more den the mate we started out together. Since my 教训, which explains why i've been quite down in the start of the semester, made me see the light. I will place my trust in you. (yucks this sounds so wrong! anyhow->continue) I think you know who u r la since all the big mouths around me confirm will tell u. Not that becos i knew u earlier therefore everything u say is more justified den the other but that you are packed with goodwill (i dun hav 1/2 ur 好心肠)and has a firm n objective view about things. Many times i'll rather believe in the decision u make becos i know the amount of thot u have put into it is something that probably will not have crossed my mind. And due to this incident, i knew for certain ppl, my trust will not be misplaced. When not too long ago a misunderstanding re: gan renjian with the 12th comm juz pop out from nowhere, it dint cross my mind dat he haboured selfish intention in the cause he wanted to bring across. Despite i dint know the details of the expedition, i knew that he's more honourable a man den many others. Thus, i dint hesistate to say dat i believe rj dint mean to undermine any1 becos he's juz not some1 who'll do such a thing. Im glad i dint hold back this time. Y.EAH~ This remind me of the good times i have with my 11th comm. HEre's a video from our dinner at Hotel Rendezvous for a laugh:
Anyway, i've been questioning myself why m i studying something i dont even have a passion for. But passion do run out when u start doing anything u enjoy seriously rather den for leisure. I mean i wouldnt mind spending all my time on books if 1) i enjoy the subject 2) i seriously gain super high utility mugging den anything else WHICH I SIMPLY DONT. Well, juz hope my dad will not go gaga if i dun end up in my field after i grad. Its really the years of transition in NTU dat makes me wad i m now. I cant imagine gg out to work str8 after poly/jc. I think my train of thought wud still be very immature. Regarding my siao zabor mannerisms now, i just choose to behave this way becos i cant stand conformity.
Tried to do some pumping cos whole bod really is more nuah den i thot. NO climb, no run, no swim for lyk a month! im gg nuts! Watched ep 3 of Full Metal Alchemist last thurs at sz's (while tung boy snores nearby), the line " To train ur mind, you must first train your body" really strike a cord. I MUST EXERCISE!!!! The urge to be become stronger results in chronic shoulder ache. TMD all my climbing went to waste again!! Muscle ache is the first sign dat i have no back muscles to begin with. Dam the school go n lock up the climbing wall 害 me wanted to sneak in but yali din't want us getting expelled in our final year... Fine fine~~ BOring. My shoes is rotting under my bed in the ziplock bag. Crying out to me. Think will jio a few ppl go yishun safra aircon boulder gym after exam. So sianz still coughing after one week of flu. Cant even enjoy a shot of volka with the wadeva juices i hav left in my fridge. ARGGGHHH. WASTED. All these rainy nites is simply the best excuse to indulge. *brrr...
